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Faith.

Journal Entry: Thu May 15, 2008, 7:55 AM


Faith, is a very biased and personal thing.

Whether it's your faith in God, in a person, in an idea, in a dream.. It's always relative, and.. Close to heart.


How can I explain how it feels?

Imagine you've invested everything that you are, your entire being, every ounce of faith and hope and trust and belief into one thing. And then imagine having that taken away from you. Having it turn 180 degrees around in an instant. Everything that you've invested and dreamed of crumbles. Your life's goal, destroyed.

You don't just lose faith in that thing.

You lose yourself.


The air is stale. Heavy, and dark. Everything moves in slow motion. Nothing makes sense.

It feels wrong. It *is* wrong.


Maybe I was a fool. Maybe it's my fault and I'm to blame for where I am today.

But it strikes me as ironic, that the one who doesn't need it gets it, and the one who really needs it, is left without it.

And I tried. I tried so hard that there's nothing left of me. I put all my faith in one thing, my entire being, and had that taken away from me. Again. I had *me* taken away from me. This was me. This is me. I AM this.

There is nothing else in the world that I want. And at this point, I wonder if there's anything worth living for.




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Devious Information

  • Current Age: 21
  • Current Residence: Cairo, Egypt.
  • Interests: Art, Literature, Video Games, Croissants, Reverse Polarity.
  • Favourite movie: Fight Club, StarWars.
  • Favourite band or musician: Incubus, dredg, Muse, Tool.
  • Favourite artist: We're all artists, one way or another.
  • Favourite poet or writer: Shakespeare.
  • Operating System: MacOS X, Windows XP.
  • MP3 player of choice: iPod.
  • Skin of choice: The one that keeps everyone else out. Mine.
  • Favourite game: World of Warcraft.
  • Favourite gaming platform: PC, PS2.
  • Favourite cartoon character: Cartman, bitch!
  • Personal Quote: Don't fuck with a Gemini. Ever.
  • Tools of the Trade: MacBook Pro, Aperture, Photoshop, Terragen, Canon PowerShot, Pen and Paper.

Devious Comments

~Fallen-Deeply-757:iconFallen-Deeply-757: 3 days 9 hours ago
=*(

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Hope requires the contender
Who sees no virtue in surrender.
From the cradle to the bier,
The heart must persevere.
~mykwee88:iconmykwee88: 6 days 23 hours ago
thanks for the fave dude...

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2 + 1 = trouble
d o t h e m a t h
*Sabattier:iconSabattier: May 8, 2008, 8:52:34 PM
thanks for the fav :hug:

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"Sometimes the appropriate response to reality is to go insane." - Philip K. Dick

mmm brains :zombie:
~RandomnessRox-184:iconRandomnessRox-184: Apr 30, 2008, 8:26:19 PM
No problem! :]

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(Chelsea).

When everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am.-Iris
=idlemickey:iconidlemickey: Apr 30, 2008, 8:24:52 PM
You're welcome :)

And thanks for the favs as well!

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|Be a sport, check out my art.|
|My band. Music to blow your head off.|
|Watch me!|

Don't fuck with a Gemini. Ever.
~RandomnessRox-184:iconRandomnessRox-184: Apr 30, 2008, 2:08:37 PM
Thanks so much for the fave!! :D I really appreciate it

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(Chelsea).

When everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am.-Iris
~Fallen-Deeply-757:iconFallen-Deeply-757: Apr 30, 2008, 1:53:23 PM
Oh..Sorry..I switched my project around..Just check out my next journal and it will explain...

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Hope requires the contender
Who sees no virtue in surrender.
From the cradle to the bier,
The heart must persevere.
=idlemickey:iconidlemickey: Apr 30, 2008, 1:23:00 PM
Sweet!

Btw, check *aeyeduh, she's a great photographer. You can use her stuff for your project. Just remember to ask her first!

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|Be a sport, check out my art.|
|My band. Music to blow your head off.|
|Watch me!|

Don't fuck with a Gemini. Ever.
~Fallen-Deeply-757:iconFallen-Deeply-757: Apr 30, 2008, 12:18:12 PM
Yes.. =) ..lol...No, but seriously I favorited most of your pictures and in my Gallery Stat thing..It says I favorited you the most..If you check out my devious information thing it has a few shoutouts to you too... pCe

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Hope requires the contender
Who sees no virtue in surrender.
From the cradle to the bier,
The heart must persevere.
*CatchMe-22:iconCatchMe-22: Apr 30, 2008, 9:07:02 AM
thanks for the fav... muchly appreciated! Feel free to drop by again anytime :wave:

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"Imagination is intelligence with an erection."
--Victor Hugo
~Fallen-Deeply-757:iconFallen-Deeply-757: Apr 29, 2008, 2:43:09 PM
Glad to see my best friend Hakari is watching you...Lol..I showed her your pictures..She loved them a lot and said she is going to stalk you... I told her " Ut-uh..He's mine to do that to" lol..Of course..I was just joking.. =)

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Hope requires the contender
Who sees no virtue in surrender.
From the cradle to the bier,
The heart must persevere.
~Eca-flip:iconEca-flip: Apr 29, 2008, 10:34:01 AM
tnx for faving my Luck ^^ i love ur gallery
~Fallen-Deeply-757:iconFallen-Deeply-757: Apr 26, 2008, 6:56:06 PM
I hope things work out =(

*Not that this is my conversation..but I do*

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Hope requires the contender
Who sees no virtue in surrender.
From the cradle to the bier,
The heart must persevere.
~Fallen-Deeply-757:iconFallen-Deeply-757: Apr 26, 2008, 6:53:42 PM
4 days***

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Hope requires the contender
Who sees no virtue in surrender.
From the cradle to the bier,
The heart must persevere.
~Fallen-Deeply-757:iconFallen-Deeply-757: Apr 26, 2008, 6:52:54 PM
..I've read your comments from the past two days...They all have responses...But oh well..
My nails smell so bad..
I put this stuff on it to help them grow..
And ewe..

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Hope requires the contender
Who sees no virtue in surrender.
From the cradle to the bier,
The heart must persevere.
=idlemickey:iconidlemickey: Apr 26, 2008, 4:14:59 PM
I'm really sorry, really :(

I've just been swamped with work as usual. I don't have as much time to check my dA these days.

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|Be a sport, check out my art.|
|My band. Music to blow your head off.|
|Watch me!|

Don't fuck with a Gemini. Ever.
=idlemickey:iconidlemickey: Apr 26, 2008, 4:14:08 PM
I know exactly what you mean :)


Why don't I have a girlfriend? Well.. I don't know.. Nobody ever expressed interest in me since my ex. Except my ex herself, which is another story altogether. And recently, she expressed disinterest as well after all the talking we've been doing. So I'm kind of left out in the cold now.

I do want to be in a relationship. I want to be in a relationship with her. And I actually thought things were going rather well, until she decided to change her mind again. I don't know, really. She's not a bad person, she really isn't.. She's just.. Confused, and scared. I tried to help change that, but I guess some things never change.

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|Be a sport, check out my art.|
|My band. Music to blow your head off.|
|Watch me!|

Don't fuck with a Gemini. Ever.
~IllegalPoser:iconIllegalPoser: Apr 26, 2008, 12:44:47 AM
Ah. Yeah, it's an unfortunate situation to be in.

Today was an odd day. I had school, and then a family get together-in which all of my aunts and uncles, all 14 of them, were drunk off their asses and ignoring me. They say I'm quiet and anti-social. I say I don't like talking to drunks who insult me.

I can understand how you would feel like the "fifth" wheel. Can I ask why you don't have a girlfriend? I know you've told me a bit about your ex, but you don't feel like being in a relationship presently?

Lol, 3am when you wrote this?
It's now almost 1am here. I'm thinking about passing out in a few minutes. I've always had this dream to have a big white, chilly, comforter. So when I crawl underneath it after taking a warm shower, the contrast from heat to cold will make me feel perfectly content.

Do you know what I mean?
Hmm...I might be tired rambling now.

<3
=idlemickey:iconidlemickey: Apr 25, 2008, 5:24:01 PM
I think I know exactly what you mean, when you say you've made your decision but can't seem to follow through. I'm not in that situation, but, I may know someone who is. Besides you, that is, hehe.

Today, is slow. I'm about to hit the sack actually. I stayed home all day, played on my ps2 and PC (Yeah, I'm an adult gamer and I'll always be one!). Friend called asked me to go with him and his girlfriend and this other dude and his girlfriend swimming. And I said hell no, I don't want to be a.. fifth wheel. It wouldn't have been really nice hanging out with a couple of.. couples, lol.

So yeah, it's 3am, and I'm gonna turn on the AC and crawl under my comforter. Which isn't very comforting, to say the least.

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|Be a sport, check out my art.|
|My band. Music to blow your head off.|
|Watch me!|

Don't fuck with a Gemini. Ever.
~IllegalPoser:iconIllegalPoser: Apr 25, 2008, 2:59:44 PM
I know, I was very pissed off about the whole thing. I couldn't understand why he would say it was disgusting, let alone to a self injurer. Besides, if we're allowed to have gay pride, we should have self injury support. It's unbelievably unfair.

*Shrugs*

Yes, I still can't decide which guy.
Or I've made my decision and am incapable of following through with said decision. It's hard to hurt someone, but at the moment we're all sort of hurting anyway.

How's it going today?
( I intend to keep this conversation going for a very long time, so that I don't loose contact with you :p if i get annoying, just let me know :) )