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Tin Can Phone by ~idlemickey:iconidlemickey:

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You make me feel
Hollow and pointless
When I know I'm not

Striving to be a non-function
Of your vengeance
These moments turn into centuries

Blatant disregard, you're making my own mistakes
And I am forced to watch
Logic defeats the heart, when one is heartless
And oceans apart

When there's no one to blame but yourself
You blame fate, the world, God
But never yourself
And I, the fool I am, blame myself

Like a lung, I loved you
And still do
Couldn't breath right without you
And so I suffocate, asphyxiate
And choke, on your
Second hand smoke

You'd believe their lies
And disprove my truth
Just because their lies are worse
And you'd do anything to bring me lower
than I already am
(I have to look up, to see a snake)

I am crushed and thrown away like
Every letter of mine that has passed your hand
Like every attempt at a white flag
To end this perpetual war waged against me

I am empty, and yet I do not complain
It makes more room to keep it all in
That which does not kill you
Will make you wish it had

You would prefer others in my place
When I place you above all others
But if I was a lie
I wouldnt be here now

would I?

Everything is
Tasteless
Colorless
Soundless
I'm a deaf, blind mute
Because you were all my organs
Not just my heart


But I ate my heart last night
And it tasted bitter







And I liked it.
©2006-2009 ~idlemickey
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Do people even read these fucking descriptions?

Well, if they do, then here's some describing. I feel... everything, and nothing. Every moment is different.

Anger, hate, love, serenity, depression, loss, bitterness, joy, hope, strength... I feel all those, but they are just a blur through every moment of every day.

I had something special, and I lost it. Be it by my own doing or the combined lack of effort on both parts of the situation. I tried as hard as I thought I could to mend and heal both of us, but it was too much work for me alone. And yes, I did feel alone throughout.

You did too, did you not? Who's the culprit? Me? You? Us? Fate?

Logic? Emotion?

All and none, I guess... nothing is certain.

Maybe I did know your needs. Maybe I thought you needed the space and was giving it to you, and you interpreted it as neglect. Maybe I was wrong. Maybe you were wrong.

But the one mistake I'm sure we're doing, is walking away from what our hearts are telling us.

Everyone has a heart, broken or not. Broken things work, even if not as efficiently. And sometimes, the only way to mend a broken heart is to open up.
A patient can never be cured, if locked in a dark cold room.

The cavities that are our chests, hold broken hearts. And it's cold and dark in there.

Let some sun shine through.

I cared then, I care now. I will always care. There's nothing wrong with me, I am not a bad person, I am not the neglectful, uncaring, disregarding and unfulfilling person you think I am... because those memories of me that keep you curled up and twitching, are the same memories that made you feel warm and safe.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, I may not always feel that same way I felt while writing this.

I still dream of you. The good dreams. And most of the time, looking forward to those dreams are the only thing keeping me alive.

I am here now, but maybe someday I would not be. Wether it's by my choice, yours, or God's. So be logical, like you claim, and don't make my mistakes and waste the time I AM around.

Unless, of course... your whole point is to wake up and not find me there.
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~aeyeduh:iconaeyeduh: Jul 26, 2006, 9:33:42 PM
In the desert
I saw a creature, naked, bestial,
Who, squatting upon the ground,
Held his heart in his hands,
And ate of it.
I said: "Is it good, friend?"
"It is bitter-bitter," he answered;
"But I like it
Because it is bitter,
And because it is my heart."

-- Stephen Crane

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enjoy: :coffeecup: [link]
~Lord-Ucifer:iconLord-Ucifer: Jul 27, 2006, 2:22:25 AM
Hey man.. Great Job.. I see u have a real good talent in writing.. No wonder your band was one of the few good bands from Egypt that did great originals..
~idlemickey:iconidlemickey: Jul 27, 2006, 8:02:01 AM
Thanks man :D

But why our originals were good was due to our honesty with our emotions just as much as talent.

Always be honest with yourself and how you feel, because if you're not honest with yourself, how can you be honest with others?

--
|Be a sport, check out my art.|
|My band. Music to blow your head off.|
|Watch me!|

Don't fuck with a Gemini. Ever.
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~idlemickey:iconidlemickey: Jul 27, 2006, 8:04:02 AM
Exactly what prompted my ending.

Pretty deep guy, is he not? You have to look beyond the surface of what he says though.

--
|Be a sport, check out my art.|
|My band. Music to blow your head off.|
|Watch me!|

Don't fuck with a Gemini. Ever.
~Lord-Ucifer:iconLord-Ucifer: Jul 27, 2006, 8:35:50 AM
Yeah I know dude.. I really get what mean.. Like I heard a couple of other Metal bands that do originals and stuff like Redeemers and Odious and stuff but I didn't like them that much.. I feel as though their work is like somehow ripped off from another band or something.
~idlemickey:iconidlemickey: Jul 27, 2006, 9:24:03 AM
That's perfectly true. And I think you can guess why. They try too hard to sound like their influences, and not hard enough to sound like themselves.

And sometimes, they are just simply ripping off of another band ;)

--
|Be a sport, check out my art.|
|My band. Music to blow your head off.|
|Watch me!|

Don't fuck with a Gemini. Ever.
~Lord-Ucifer:iconLord-Ucifer: Jul 27, 2006, 2:52:42 PM
The thing that pisses me off dude, is that the ppl over here man accept such crappy music just for their aim to be labelled as a Metalhead. No one in this country appreciates good music anymore.
~mile2smile:iconmile2smile: Nov 11, 2006, 5:30:04 PM
Searching for a feeling i am living today- i found this.
I cried- not expecting it to be so long and detailed...
I felt as though i had written it myself. or perhaps i was being watched :eyepopping:
Weird how people from different walks of life can still feel the same amount of pain or loss and chose to describe neglectful love using the same exact words.

I guess i just wanted you to know how close i felt to this piece of work.
thats how writing is supposed to be i guess. :rose:
maybe you'll stop in and read some of my own.

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~Jacalyn Maria :heart: L(0)(0)K [link]
If your life is burning well, poetry is the ash ~leonard cohen
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