What If I Live Tomorrow

The light of dawn
Marks another day
Slipping through my fingertips

Neverending time
Forms a constant rhyme
With every beat that my heart

          Skips

As if I was just
A moment in eternity
Inconsequential

          Dismissed and forgotten


What if all we've built crumbles like
A castle made of sand
Making its last stand
Against a tidal wave?

What if I live tomorrow?


Can't help but feel like a two-year stand
While waking up the next morning with bad breath
And a hangover

          From being drunk on confusion

          High on illusion


          Compulsively disordered


This is my freezer
Where I keep my memories on ice
Until they are placed in the microwave
and I hit

          Defrost

What if all our dreams are stolen like
Candy from a baby?
So easy, but maybe
So hard on the heart

What if I live tomorrow?


For the longest time
Every morning I've paid
Tribute to my torment
In my own flesh and blood

Given a piece of my sanity
          My soul
          Myself
Just to keep breathing

But not anymore

          I denounce my pain


What if all our hopes are murdered like
A cripple in their bed?
Even if already half-dead
You'd wonder which is better

What if I live
          tomorrow?

What if I fucking live tomorrow...


I've held that castle
That castle made of sand
Against tidal waves and storms
With my own bare hands